Living a Surrendering Life: Finding Freedom in God’s Grace

There are moments in life when I reflect on where God has taken me from, and it’s amazing to see what true surrender can accomplish. Yet, as I ponder the concept of surrender, I’ve realized that the term "a surrendered life" may be misleading. None of us can claim to be fully surrendered until we leave this earth. Instead, I believe we are called to live a surrendering life where every season demands that we let go of something and trust God anew.

When we say we live a surrendered life, it suggests finality, as though we’ve reached the ultimate destination. However, surrender is a process. Each stage of our lives calls for new levels of trust, obedience, and faith. As a believer and a woman of God, I’ve often struggled, even while pursuing His presence and His glory. There were times when my past would flash before me, stirring shame and regret. But in those moments, the presence of God reminded me: You are no longer there.

Many of us walk around burdened by the shame of our past. I’m here to tell you that I am not ashamed. Yes, I’ve done things I’m not proud of, but I am not defined by them. Instead, I stand as a testament to the redeeming power of God’s glory in my life. To anyone struggling to maintain their salvation or Christian Walk, I want to encourage you to tap into the greatest source—Christ Jesus.

Stop Living Through Someone Else’s Lens

Far too often, we vicariously live our faith through the lens of a pastor, leader, or someone we admire. While it’s okay to be inspired by others, God wants us to be ourselves with Him—raw, honest, and vulnerable. He desires a true representation of who we are: sinners who are struggling but desperately want to be saved, healed, and delivered.

I’ve learned this lesson in profound ways, especially in my marriage. For 19 years, I prayed and waited for my husband to give his life to Christ. In the early years, I was self-righteous, pressuring him to surrender to God. What I didn’t realize was that my impatience and judgmental attitude were driving him further away. My frustration led me to make choices I never thought I would, choices that could have destroyed my marriage.

James 1:4 reminds us to "let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing." Impatience, on the other hand, leads to chaos. I’m living proof of how dangerous impatience can be. Yet, by God’s grace, my marriage was not only saved but also transformed.

The Power of Free Will and Surrender

Every human being has the will to fight. The question is, what are we fighting for? God has given us free will, and we must choose wisely. A life of surrender is a life of choosing God every day, no matter what life throws our way.

I remember struggling with this choice even as a young girl. At 14, I attempted suicide for the first time. Though I encountered God in that dark moment, the void in my life remained because I didn’t fully surrender to Him. At 16, I attempted suicide again, clinging to fantasies of what an "ideal life" should be. It wasn’t until I allowed God to fill those voids that I began to experience true healing and purpose.

To anyone feeling alone or overwhelmed by life’s battles, know this: you are not alone. God is able to save, deliver, and set you free.

Pursue God Authentically

In your quiet moments, talk to God as honestly as you can. Don’t let anyone else’s journey be the template for your relationship with Him. Yes, admire others, but pursue God for yourself. He’s waiting to meet you exactly where you are.

My prayer is that this message encourages you to embrace the process of living a surrendering life. It’s not about being perfect; it’s about continually yielding to God, trusting Him to redeem every broken piece of your story.

Final Words

Looking back on my life, I see God’s hand at every turn—through my mistakes, impatience, darkest moments, and victories. Surrender is never easy, but it’s always worth it. Wherever you are in your journey, remember God is with you, and His grace is sufficient.

I am because HE IS ~SEW~